Competition

My main weaknesses is ME
My core strength is ME ..
Therefore, I must learn to balance my principle ...

I most hate ME
and I love ME too much
Therefore, I must place myself second to others ...


ME represents perfection
and most imperfection reflects ME
Therefore, I must push myself to be humble ...

My best friend is ME
My worst enemy is ME
Therefore, I must look for guidance ...

I never walk alone ...
because if I walk alone .. I will lose my path ...

So I challenge myself with the best competitor I can find
and this competitor is
ME ....

For I could never be able to walk in ALLAH's earth steadfast in principle,humbled, guided if I don't put the worst of me in front ..

Can't sleep again ...

Darn, its almost 3:00 am .. my brain feels tired .. but my eyes refuse to follow natures automatic response to night time .. darn darn darn ..

I am gonna feel like a zombire tomorrow morning ... *sigh* ...

Missed my fitness session this week .. because I have to finish my working paper ... how I wish people with power are more consistent with their words ...

I really wonder what am I exactly doing with my life ..??

Have I allowed things and events and emotions to pass by me without taking opportunity thats been 'offered' and again blaming things that doesn't happened as 'not-fated' .. urgh .. I still dare not jump into that bandwagon of uncertainties that you will always find when you enter into the 'relationship' path ... nope ... not yet ...

jeeps ... am I such a loser ... news flash .. I AM NOT A LOSER ... not gonna let anything or any one put me down .. muahahahah ... hey I like what I see in the mirror ... with all the imperfection .... because I am a 'beautiful' soul .. because I do not allow myself to sell short with coldness, selfishness and arrogance ... I find there are people whom are good at that .. they feed their ego and self-proclaimed worthiness by 'pointing out and looking down .. slow, unfocus, people like me' .. news flash .. my conscious are 'clean & clear' compared to them whom exalted from others weaknesses ... gosh .. why should I worry myself about their existence .. its either them or me to take that role in life .. and I'm glad its not me ...

Darn .. got to force this eyes to sleep .. eyes sleep .. coz the body and the brain needs it terribly ... eyes please please please sleep