Friday, October 10, 2014

SEARCHING FOR ME??

Used to think of various means to know about my lineage/heritage ... and so on and on and on ... using that as measurement to fit in or feel accepted.

Than one day, something incredibly simple happened.  I looked in the mirror.

Betullah ... kita selalu tak nampak apa di depan mata.

:)

Friday, August 01, 2014

Hmmmmmm

Never place your emotions on some one else's hands

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Karma ...

Karma is a sanskrit (me thinks) word universally accepted as THE word for justice.

Hallooooooo .... I'm back with a vengeance !!!! Ngeeee

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

MY NEW JOY

Hiiii .. am testing on new joy toy of the year ..

Something I'd never thought I will do .. get myself this phone .. hope it will function well ... good luck to me ...

camera - check - ok
sms - check - ok
mms - hmm - problemo
tv - check - wowee tv9 channel clearest
call - check - ok
memory - got free 2BG sd card .. woohoo
wap - check - okee dokee - opera mini ok

now how the h*** am i suppose to download free office mobile to view and edit doc, xl and ppt

hua hua hua .. if I succeed .. I will tell you how
it is not that cheap .. but hopefully it still worth the money and serve me more than 2 years .. heheheh

Monday, November 02, 2009

Coretan lalu .... durga 2009

Sangat menakjubkan.

Permainan kehidupan ini. Adakala kita berada di pihak yang benar .. adakala kita berada di pihak yang salah. Adakala kita cuba menjadi pelindung .. dan adakala kita merasa ingin dilindungi .. Yang pasti, kita tidak dapat memuaskan hati semua pihak .. termasuk diri kita sendiri dan yang pasti setiap perlakuan dan keputusan yang kita ambil akan melukakan satu atau lebih dua pihak ....

Corat-coret permainan kehidupan akhir-akhir ini yang ku terceburkan diri, akhirnya menyedarkan aku .. betapa aku tidak cocok memegang peranan dalam sayembara sketsa dan drama cacasarbuana.

Cuba pada ketelusan .. dilampiaskan dengan kekalutan. Cuba dibawa kejujuran .. namun disambut dengan cabang-berkarut. Dikatakan ini dugaan,bukan sahaja untuk aku tapi juga untuk mereka yang terpalit dalam kemelut yang seperti tiada penghujungnya ini ...

Untuk apa dugaan ini .... untuk difikirkankah? untuk diselesaikankah? untuk ditinggalkankah? untuk dilupakankah? ... apakah tiada pengajarannya? ... ada yang berkata .. jangan ambil peduli .. biarkan kabut itu berlalu pergi .. jangan terperangkap di dalam nya .. kerana tiada cahaya di dalam nya .. benarkah ??? ada yang kata biarkan kabut itu dengan cara tersendiri .. masih boleh hampiri .. tapi hanya di tepian sisi .. Apa ini?

Aku benarkan kata sahabat ku Fawsal, sahabat ku Fawsal, sahabat ku Fawsal...
Sinar yang paling bercahaya .. terpantul .. dari kaca yang dijernihkan oleh NYA .. benar .. kita dituntut menghindari sesuatu yang kita tahu membawa bahaya .. namun sekiranya terpaksa, layarilah ia dengan redha .. apa yang telah diperkatakan .. apa yang telah disayembarakan .. redha akan dia .. kerana .. ianya berlaku dengan izinNYA jua ..

Aku yakin dengan kabut itu, aku tidak akan lari dari kabut itu dan aku ingin melihat kabut itu bertukar menjadi tenaga sinar yang cahayanya .. yang melebihi mentari pagi .. bersinar dari ufuk ke ufuk .. kerana aku yakin pada Kuasa-NYA .. kerana hidayah datang dari NYA .. dan apabila Ia ingin menghadiahkan keistimewaan kepada mereka yang dipilih NYA .. ia pasti berlaku .. dan aku doa-doakan agar sang kabut-kabutan .. akan berusaha dan membenarkan sirna NUR itu meresap di dalam jiwa mereka .. kerana kuncinya .. di dalam hati mereka sendiri ..

Aku hanya mampu menadahkan tangan mendoakan .. pelayaran sang kabut-kabutan akan berakhir dengan cahaya nurani yang tinggi .. insyaALLAAH ... semoga sang kabut-kabutan .. memaafkan daku jua ..

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

ARLOOOOOOOOOOOO ..

I forgot to update these pages .. so this is it .. Hi ALL .. miss ALL .. hehee

Monday, July 27, 2009

RETRO HI-TEA

Woo Hoo .. me and Nina were at my office Retro Hi-Tea Party (ladies only) .. and yes you got it right .. psychadelic baby ..


I went with top to toe flower-power hippie looks albeit a skirt replacing those famous wide pants with platform sandals. Nina opt for the Saloma look complete with the beehive hairpiece ..


The room were filled with merriment and laughter, from almost 100 guests whom braved the weather to be there (it was windy and drizzling outside :p) ..

Friday, July 17, 2009

I LOVE 3D MOVIES

Forgot to upload this blog earlier. Too busy

Anyway, 3 Fridays ago I watched Ice Age 3 : Dawn of the Dinaosour ... in 3D. Oh yeah .. it totally and definitively spoiled my taste for animated movies now, .. 3D is the only way to watch the movie at best ...

As for the storyline, its almost same-0, same-0, the characters retained their spectacular and colourful personality .. but Mama Rex rock .. see how she bravely smackdown the fearful Rodney (if I remember well the name of that gigantic alligator).

And of course, not forgetting the two cute squirrels, but I think think their cuteness was strained away with too many romantic and heart-shaped tails entertwining here and there ... a good distractor though ... :)

My ratings - 3 Dimensional phenomenal fun .. thats the only way to watch this movie. Hey, you get to kick yourself thinking the characters going to jump out of the screen and onto your face (had not had such shock for quite sometime) .. it was pure fun ... and going UP is next in line hehehe .. anyone to join me ..


Wednesday, July 15, 2009

THE BRIGHTEST STAR OF ALL

The Planet Venus is the second closest planet to the sun. It is located between our Earth and Mercury. It is named after the Roman goddess of love and beauty. (dalam B. Melayu dipanggil Kejora).

Venus is covered with thick clouds that create a greenhouse effect that makes it very hot. Venus has no moons.

Venus is the brightest object in the sky besides our Sun and the Moon. It is also known as the morning star because at sunrise it appears in the east and and evening star as it appears at sunset when it is in the west. It cannot be seen in the middle of the night.

A Venusian day is 243 Earth days and is longer than its year of 225 days. Oddly, Venus rotates from east to west (retrograde - opposite to that of earth). If you were on Venus, the Sun would rise in the west and set in the east.

Facts about Planet Venus
* Diameter: 12,100 km. It is about 1040km smaller in diameter than Earth
* Temperature: Ranges from 900F+/- 50F (about 500°C +/- 32°C) at the surface
* Distance from Earth: At its closest, Venus is 41,840,000 km away
* Atmosphere: Carbon dioxide (95%), nitrogen, sulfuric acid, and traces of other elements
* Surface: A rocky, dusty, waterless expanse of mountains, canyons, and plains, with a 200-mile river of hardened lava
* Rotation of its axis: 243 Earth days (1 Venusian Day)
* Rotation around the Sun: 225 Earth days
* Magnetic Field: No




Thursday, July 02, 2009

JR+EBU

What caught my sight .. and it's almost 12.00 noon .. :( .. wonder what is our air index ??











and the pictures above was captured with >>>>>>


yep .. me brand new fe 3010 ... have lots of functions .. confusing but fun to learn using this tech gadget for imagery .. memaang giler bergambar kali ini .. heheheh ... watch out .. you may not know whom caught you on Candid Camera .. muahahaha .. my frenz gonna get headaches ...

MAGNETIC AURA ...


Well, we have this competition in the office ..
whom have the most magnetic aura ..
guess which is mine
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:D

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

TRIGGER HAPPY TODAY ..

waa .. today, there's ICT fair in the lobby. and of course .. its spenditure time ... heheh .. so little ole me got to buy a 2GB micro SD card. Why do i need this card ... since my 'sweet' along lend me her A430 powershot, with 16mb storage capacity, capturing pics during my programmes .. can be quite challenging ..

muahahaha .. now i have a good storage for 1000 pics or 4hrs worth of movie .. muahaha ... happy giler .. and this to show how trigger happy i could be ... and to prove that .. my photographic skill is not so bad after all .. :P ...

view i can see from my window / balcony and sometimes caught sight of an eagle or two from here .. :)


where i will perch when wanting a closer look of the eagles or just watching the skyline or vying the traffic conditions for the day .. width about 1 feet. There's two perch area - one north-west, one north-east


Jeng .. jeng .. jeng .. some of the views from both my perch area ...







Views like these, makes you daydream ....

Monday, June 29, 2009

AND THE WINNER IIIISSS .....

Had a very, very hectic weekend.

A good half-day Saturday was filled with spring cleaning sessions. Had to say "BuhBye" to some collectdibles items (a.k.a collect+dusts). Some of these knick-knacks I can't even remember how or where I got them. Into the bins they went .. and yeah .. mom's all smiles seeing them go .. huuu.

Saturday nite .. went for a wedding dinner .. but not as guests .. as semi amateur photographer hehehe ... but I make sure I don't look like your usual photographer ... there I was garbed in sequinned black traditional dress .. and high heels too (mom sought of twisted my arm to wear them .. look feminine this time, she insisted .. hehehe .. 30 yrs too late mumzie).

And there I was, clicking away happily with an auto digital camera. But .. hmph .. somehow the results was not as expected, as berated 'nicely' by someone .. yo bro, next time give me a camera with stabilizer .. no one can hold a camera for straight 20 minutes without shaking ... especially when the room is cold .. :P

Sunday .. sunday .. sunday .. I love sundays ... :)

Morning, went back to P.Indah, dad's -hometown island.. about 45 min drive. This is my quality time with darling dad. And quality time for dad with his relatives. Island folks most friendliest, basically almost everyone is family or somehow related via marriage. But .. I had a wonderful surprise .. drove around the area just for fun .. and lo and behold .. a beautiful majestic site awaits me ... there he was ... alone .. looking tall and regal .. an eagle ..

He was perched on one of the trees .. felt like he was looking straight at me .. as if he knows .. was struck by how handsome this king of birds look ... aloft up high .. from time to time he looks around him .. alert .. on the look out .. How I envy them winged creatures .. wild, free .. the only rules that he follow is the rules of his Creator .. not the rules of mankind ... I truly envy his freedom ... Then he flew off .. with that sound that totally belongs to him .. no mistake about that ... tried to snap a few pics with me ole samsung .. alas .. dissappointed ...

I was so besotted with what I see that I didn't take any notice where I step .. and *piak* .. my slippered right feet stepped right on top of a .. "COWS DUNG" ... haiyaaaaa .... it is almost dried but some still got stuck under my flip-flops .. AND I JUST BOUGHT THIS FLIP-FLOP .. dang !!dang!! ....

Me and dad had a good 'masak lemak' lunch with one of the aunts .. :) .. love you mak ucu .. the best cook of the island .. hehehe .. we ate too much .. had to take a bit rest before journeying home. Reached home and got exactly 15 minutes to freshen up and drove to stadium slayang .. where my favourite team played against muar fc .. hehe ...

And yesssss ... my team won .. and the scream of support and joy .. somehow helps release the tension of the day .. hehe ..

And its time out for me today .. :)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

RING RING ...

Ring ring .. oops missed that call .. press the call button .. hmmm .. music and voice mail operator.

Ring ring .. the phone shrills again .. picked up the call,

"Alooo .. I will be going for a job interview in a few minutes, please wish that, hopefully, I will got the job" ... Che Pah's chirpy voice was broadcasted through my old samsung clamshell.

A normal conversation right. And yet I felt so touch. I only know her for almost a year. We communicate frequently but not that often. Only met her like less than 7 times. Hardly buddies right.

And yet, I felt touch that she included me, amongst her many list of families and friends, to be updated of her most current situation. Its kinda nice to know that my thoughts and opinion counts. Makes one feel important in that person's life ...

And my response, "Yes, Che Pah .. I shall pray for you getting a good new job, happy life and a good potential spouse as well .. kah kah kah kah kah"

Monday, June 15, 2009

YIKES .. BLOODSUCKERS ...

On Sunday .. pretty ole me got a call .. Jom!! to the orchard.

I was looking forward to a lazy afternoon, lulling and day-dreaming by the small stream in a fruit orchard :)

And yet, lo and behold, they say, Jom! let's trek .. woohoo .. luv you guys for the invitation, dreams came true .. its been ages since I trek into these part of the woods.

As always, it feels like going home .. really. I always like nature, they don't scare me. So far, I've never caught a glimpse of any 4-legged predators. Once did come across a footprint of what could be a tiger .. but that's all.

It is not an ezy-peazy thing to walk across stream .. climb uphill and reach our destinations .. but satisfying nevertheless .. except .. for those bloodsucking creatures. That just clings and clings and refuse to let go till they could suck-in whatever they can from you (sounds familiar huh!!). As long as I don't touch them, I can ignore the fact that they are fattening from my very valuable 0.001 pt of blood .. hehehe

Can't blame it . It was created for a single purpose .. sucking blood. If it could talk, probably it would try hard to spew out my blood .. poisoned with caffeine and cheese fat they were .. :D .. too bad leech. Believe me .. I don't hate them leeches, but no love lost on them either .. :P. But can't help pitying the poor little creatures when they are being crushed after being pulled out from the skin they are so attached too (with a good howling yoooowwwww throughout the process),

Notice that the little leeches don't even have eyes, yet a sharp sense of smell (blood only)...
Well enjoy the view ...

Friday, June 12, 2009

AM SO ZEN TODAY ...


It was a lovely, lovely, lovely sweet affair ... after lunch went to the Zen of Secret Recipe, Sooka Sentral opposite KL Sentral. Aaahhh, the ambience is sooooo riveting. Now thats during the day time, am pretty sure it would be even more wonderful if its nightime.

Imagine, after a good traditional massage and facial** a treat of chocolate gateaux and flat white coffee .. aaah .. heavenly

**massage and facial session on Saturday .. woo hooo .. a 'SUPER A-WOWZER DE-STRESS REMEDY'.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

WOO HOOO ...

In less than 3 months, the moon of Ramadhan will arrive, and what does that means children .. wooo hooooo ... long holidays, food-binge-without-guilt and more excuses for new clothes and shoes .. wooo hoooo.

Whoops .. lovely ladies, don't forget, you need to replace what you are unable to do last year. Yes, ganti puasa [ sorry, not wishing to translate this one ;) ].

So what is my preparation .. wooo hooo.. something blue, something red brown, something abstract and sweet yellow .. hehehe ..

Yep, a colourful pallette of colours this year .. can't help myself .. hehehehe

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

JEREBU ...

Jerebu = Haze (dalam Kamus DwiBahasa Longman / Longman Language Dictionary 2008)

For the past week, from my room on the 34th floor, I've noticed haze starting to build-up on the city sky. Today it got worst .. I can't even see the silhouette of the towers. I've also noticed the doves making frequent stops near my window. Guessing that the haze is making it difficult for these poor featherly creatures to breathe while flying. They are always welcome to rest at my window .. there's also bird-food readily waiting to be consumed.

So .. what happen to me during the weekend .. after the good news and half bad news .. sleep is always the best remedy. Slept like a new born baby, I did. This is another close brush to death. What ran in my thoughts. I am still not ready to face death. Do I fear death? I would be lying to say I'm not .. Will I be ever ready to face it without fear? .. I guess when the time comes I shall know. And I hope I face it with calmness .. not fear .. embracing it and not try to run away from it.

So .. what do I do now? To ensure that those whom I care and love would be showered with more care and love. Sometimes I feel that I don't deserve them, my family, extended families and friends. Nonetheless, I will not turn away from these blessings that are showered unto me.

When I saw the thickening of the jerebu on this metropolitan city sky .. it reminded me of a time whereby my brain were also covered with the same kind of hazy effect ... which resulted to bad decisions, more bad decisions and worst decisions being made ...

My brain may not be as hazy .. but I still make bad decisions, at least in a much smaller doses compared to before .. :) .. hey, as the saying goes .. to ERR is HUMAN .. and I AM HUMAN!!! not a cat .. but I know I do have a kittenish-persona in me .. hehehe .. miao!!


A green rose .. to reflect the everlasting love of the UtMost Divine .. for you and me !!!


Friday, June 05, 2009

TODAY ...

The sky is blue .. the grasses are green .. the sun shines bright ..

Just imagine .. if the sky is red .. the grasses are black .. and the sun is as dim as a bulb-light-at-the-end-of-its-life-cycle ...

Which one would uplift your spirit and make you smile ????



and who should we thank to ... !!!!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

IN THE NAME OF THE MOST INTELLIGENT ...

I really need to share this. Taken from the blogger http://magenta-made.blogspot.com/

Read on and enjoy:

A Conversation for Introduction To Philosophy Students

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD , the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Students to stand and . . .

Professor : Do you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor : You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young fella. Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer)

Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student : Yes, Sir.
Professor : So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer)

Professor : Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son ... Have you ever seen GOD?
Student : No, Sir.

Professor : Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No , Sir.

Professor : Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD , smelt your GOD ? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, Sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Professor : Yet you still believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.

Professor : According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Professor : Yes, faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student asks and professor answers

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, Sir. There isn't ..

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, megaHeat, white Heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, Sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, Sir. Darkness is the absence of something.You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light .. but if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness,isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it is, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor : If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, Sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, Sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?

(The class broke out into laughter)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? ... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, Science says that you have no brain, Sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, Sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it Sir ... exactly ! The link between MAN & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.


That student was Albert Einstein.